October 2010
109 posts
I spent the majority of this weekend all over Maryland with Greg. Started here in Salisbury, then College Park, Ellicott City, Towson, Baltimore, Bel Air, and now back to Salisbury. It was a good weekend. Now I am back and going to get sushi with Caitlin, and have a halloween party for later ;)
Happy almost Halloween.
You can plan for a change in the weather or time...
So. I’m pretty hungover right now. I was supposed to hang out with Greg last night and smoke, but instead, I was with Caitlin and Kerri and eventually Brendan and Andrew as well. Caitlin started crying at the commons, because both of our ex’s were sitting at a separate table. I decided since she had cried in public and all, that we go buy Sex and the City 2 and watch it to help her...
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Maybe I’m just tired. I have a lot of work to do tomorrow, and didn’t do any tonight because I spent time with the girls making our costumes for our frat party on Friday night. This weather is pissing me off. I miss eric. And I really need to smoke tomorrow night with Greg. Hopefully it doesn’t rain so we can sit on his roof, get high, and eventually fall asleep. At least I...
“Well you’re the closest thing I have to bring up in a conversation about a love that didn’t last, but I would never call you mine because I was never yours. It’s not that our love died, it just never really bloomed.”
-Landon Pigg
He left and I swear he took some of me with him. Every time he leaves or I leave I just lose more and more of myself.
It isn’t really the same, but I am trying to make this last. I know I’ll miss him when he is gone, but god, sometimes I wish I could rewind time and relive what once was. It was different, it was warm, the sun didn’t go down until 9 o’clock, and we didn’t have as many secrets. It is the secrets that are going to break us apart. It’s all of those things we...
Today’s the day. I’ll miss you this weekend, but I’ve missed him more.
Things have really changed.
Oh today just got even better because Greg texted me the great news. Andy and Caitlin are back together. If it is just Caitlin and I at dinner tonight she is getting a piece of my mind. This is bullshit. Fifth time this semester? Really?
I miss who I used to be before I found out I had depression. It was as if putting myself into the label and being placed with a mass majority of people made me lose my self identity. I can’t even control my emotions? I wish I could go back, because I can’t pin point an exact time when I changed, but there has to be one.
Things will be better tomorrow.
Eric’s going to be here....
Maybe I’m just tired.
I’ve just been really down on myself lately. Last night I was with Kerri and Caitlin and Caitlin was texting Andy. Kerri and I knew when she walked into the other room to get a phone call that it was him, but she came back into the living room making up some excuse. It’s just stupid. Tonight I’m going to be with Greg and I’m going to smoke. Thank God. It’s been since...
I can’t sleep right without someone in bed with me.
Eric is visiting this weekend. I am too excited for my own good. And I got a nice detailed explanation of what happened between Andy and Caitlin at the bar the other night. He yelled at her and threatened her. If they get back together then I just think she might actually be stupid. I love her and want what’s best for her and he is not it.
Love is overrated.
Yet somehow I’ve found myself in it. He is the one person that when I am around I don’t feel alone. The one person that feels just right, smells just right, touches me just right. And I used to say I’d never fall in love, that I don’t believe in it. Maybe I still don’t believe in the concept of it being some fairy tale or that it can stop things. It isn’t and it...
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